Good Bye Until July

Bye till July...:)  I am not sure if I should say something profound, be angry, be afraid, or be calm.  I believe that I am actually numb.  I am numb to the horrors of creeping cancer.  I can not even cry. 

I just know what I have to do and I will go through the motions as I have done for almost 13 years. 

I can not pray to be pain free because I will not be.  I can not pray for a cure because there is none for me.

I am not sure what to pray for anymore ....I just pray.

I pray that I will have no medical surprises.  I pray that I will go through the healing motions as well as I am doing this now....getting ready to dive into the insanity of feeling like Frankenstein for awhile.

I guess I would pray that in a few months my body will allow me to eat well.  I will pray that I have no surgeries for at least a few years....and I pray for my other friends in the fight to stay here with me.

I pray for my kids ...OK :)...I think that does it.  God Bless You All.  Nothing else to say.