Cancer Survivorship...The Thankful...Grateful Theory

Today is my birthday.  I am 57 today.  And I am happy to be here.  Look for fun hospital stories tomorrow.  Today I would like to talk about being thankful and grateful as well as the idea that in order to have full life you have to have suffered, survived and be able to talk about it.  I say bull. :)  Just bull.

I have been thinking about this stuff a lot.  In today's times for some reason people feel like they have to walk around all day being thankful for every little thing...their coffee...their new dress...their underwear.  And they must share all of their fabulous feelings with the world.   And if you do not do the same thing.......then there is something wrong with you.  Not only is there something wrong with you ...you will also never be a truly "well"  person....in mind, body, and spirit...I say bull. :)

This goes hand in hand with the idea that if you have not endured great suffering, that you may remain stupid and lack emotion and inner awakenings for the rest of your life.  Before this suffering you knew nothing in your life and learned everything from it.  You became this amazing person just because you suffered.  This suffering you must share with all others as well and make sure that it is in "story" form when you tell it, so that people fall in love and trust with you.  You can now become "1" with your audience. :).  I say bull.

Everyone on this Earth has suffered.   Everyone has been thankful and grateful at some time in their lives. 

On this day I am not feeling so thankful and grateful.  And I am allowed. My head is always in a good place.  I am allowed to be angry from time to time and whatever else.  I am allowed to feel...really feel emotion.  And I do not have to tell you about it....at all.

Today I will do a lot of thankful grateful things.  I will go to the beach.....hug my daughter and eat good food.   However in my mind I am plotting and creating.  I am trying to figure out how to stay here on this earth with minimal suffering.  I do not need to suffer to be a good person and enjoy myself.  You do not either.  Love and health.  xo